Dear God...I need you

Dear God,

My life feels like a hectic roaler coaster full of many ups and downs. The ups give me hope, courage, and happiness; while the downs give me fear, turmoil, and many doubts. I need you, my Savior, my provider, my shepherd. I am but a small baby sheep who trembles at the slightest brink of a storm. I cower at the tiniest of shadows, and I hide from the darkest of nights. And right now I am on top of a high cliff staring out over the edge as wolves rampage toward me, preparing to devour my flesh. Fear casts its doubts in the light of my eyes-fear of failure...rejection. Fear of the unknown. I am like a sinking vessel out in the middle of the atlantic, a Titanic of sorts whose lifeboat left long ago.

Please be my lifeboat...come to me during my greatest needs. Come to me even during times I feel that I do not need you, for I always need you no matter how my mind may deceieve me. Be my strength, my fortress and my deliverer; my shelter in time of need.

Oh God...I slip and stumble and fall, the drop before me miles away yet death only seconds from meeting my body. Come down and carry me on wings like eagles, rescue me from this horrid doubt that drenches my heart and fills my mind with unrelenting terror. Fill my soul with your grace and mercy, fill my mind with your peace and contenemtent, and fill my heart with your love and melody. Sing a song of beauty into my heart; a song filled with laughter and joy; a song whose melody clenches my inmost being with your astounding love. Be my rock. Be my fortress. Be my house. Be everything to me and never fail me.

And in return I will be your's. I will love you and cherish you to the best of my human ability. My flesh, my heart, my strength, although everything I can ever possibly give you will never measure up to your glorious love, I give it to you regardless to use however you wish. Let me be a light that shines in the darkest tunnels. Let me be a beacon of hope to those who seek you. Let those who look at me not see me, but your splendor and glory. And no matter what you do to me: no matter how you mold me and make me, I will accept your will. For I know that thy will is better than my will.

Please Lord help me to trust you always even through the darkest and loneliest of nights. Help me to remember that your presence is always with me, and that you are carrying me when I fall and helping me back up when I stumble
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Thank you for being my Savior. Thank you for being my redeemer. Thank you for dieing on the cross for my sins.

Thank you.

In Jesus Christ Holy, Precious Name,
Amen