From My Personal Prayer Journal

This is something that I wrote from my personal prayer journal. I normally do not share these, but I feel that what I wrote is something good for all to read and perhaps adopt for there own lives.

Janurary 29, 20100
Dear God,
Praise be to the Lord Most High who has provided relief for my wary soul. I struggle under the toils and burdens of this world, facing valleys of death that swarm my body and threaten to kill any and all life within me. Day after day I am surrounded by lost souls wallowing in pits of despair and misery, unaware of the redeeming grace in their reach. Oh! Who am I to complain about my trials when the fates of thsoe who surround me are crushed and destroyed? Who am I to be happy that for a few days time I am udner little obligation to spread the good news of the cross? What a wrteched fool I am! Here I take delight in relief, basking in its warming embrace andt aking so easily for granted the peace within me. But, alas, is this peace for want or not? Indeed, I believe it is for not. For while I am sustained in these luxurious glories of contentment, those of whom I spend nearly everday with do not know of the saving grace by which I am made of.
Lord, it is a blessing and a relief to be freed from my trials for a few days, but I know that you're calling for me to be a missionary is much more important than any mere comfort I feel at this time. Grant me the courage to speak up and take a stand. Let my light shine out both in the dark and light places. Help me to exempt a glorious beauty that does not come from the outside but from within. No matter where I am or what I am doing, please give me the strength to be your vessel for whatever you wish of me. Help me to bid your calling...even unto death. Thank you, Lord, for giving me such opportunities to be a beacon of hope in the dark -and even the light- places. I am your servant, and Oracle of Fire that cannot be quenched, for you are the oil that ocnitnues to feed me and brightens the tongues of flames empowering my body. Lord, I give all I have to you, everything that I own and every situation. Help me to be able to decipher right from wrong, and let the words of my mouth and the meditations for my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord my rock and my redeemer.

In Jesus Name,
Amen