The Secret to Being Content???

What is the secret to being content? There is a verse written by Paul where he says, "I have learned the secret to being content." Is it to be happy with all circumstances? To praise God through all your troubles and trials no matter what? To trust God through your fears? I feel that I should know...yet I do not. I feel that it is a simple answer...yet at the same time the most complex answer you could ever think of.

In my mothers Bible she underlined that verse. Although I do not use her Bible anymore for personal reasons, I always remember the fact that even though she is not with me, but the underlining of that one simple verse I feel that she was trying to tell me something. As creapy as that may sound. Or perhaps not specifically me but rather tell something in general. I think my mother learned the secret to being content.

Now I want to learn this secret. Is that selfish? No. I do not think so. To learn something that could change my life could never be selfish...right? By these last few sentences you probably can see that I'm no longer talking about "the secret of being content" but rather selfishness in general. I've realized that I am a very selfish person. And very conceited. There is a quote by C.S. Lewis that says, "if you think you're not conceited, then you are very conceited indeed." So much truth to these words! So often times I find myself scoffing and saying to myself: "psh. me? conceited? never." I take my quietness and my "naturally kind spirit" for granted and start boasting inside my head about how "magnificent, loyal, trustworthy, and spiritual I am". But, alas, I am, with all honesty here, the least of these. Although I love it when people trust me with their secrets, i am merely human and my advice-no matter how much I may think it is wise beyond my age-is not always truthful. I easily find myself thinking negatively towards people who have a big ego, but then I realize that I am no better off! I think if people would just stop judging others and start focusing on judging themselves, the world would be such a better place!!

And there I go again. Talking as if I myself do not do what I stated. I find that I judge A LOT more than I wish I did. Did you know you can gossip with yourself? Such an odd concept...you would think that it would take two people to gossip. But you can easily gossip with yourself and start thinking "this person does this, and that person does that." And then your mind turns to that judgemental state and we start acting like the jury and casting all of the trials upon people, when we should really be casting trials upon ourselves.

I think I talk to much. Erm, type to much. Most people know I am fairly quiet. There is a verse in the Bible (1 Thessalonians 4:11) that says, "Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you." Sometimes I fear I take this too literally and try to lead too quiet of a life. Bad habit. Anyways...rambling here.

I guess that's all I gotta say. I think I shall dwell on this more later. Or similiar things later. I rather stop thinking right now, otherwise I'm afraid my brain will explode.

Love,
Becca =) <3

P.S. if anyone knows the secret to being content, do tell!